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☆═━┈柠LemonTeaShop檬┈━═☆☜☞有翅膀的柠檬☜☞ 2/23/2009 Too curious, Too Furious..Sometimes..... should just let the past flow away,
is just no point to bought it up and been talk about again.
But then... curious is a drive which will bought the past thing up again...
Something always been bothering me, but I never put my mind into it... I never think for it... I just let it flow.....
The other night, he told me everything, from beginning to the end.
I don't want to listen, I want to run away from it, I don't want him to mention it again.
But because I'm curious... I continued listen.
After I hear his story.... I feel much relief.......
So maybe it's true sometimes, we should hear others explanations. Maybe there is some story behind the problem's back....
The explanation is pretty late.... and I was very furious.... But then... is all finish... full stop!
1/12/2009 in love with a Vampire?hmmm.. .. wat will happen if i turn into a vampire?
well... i guess.. i cant go out in the day time anymore.. no beach, no outdoor sport ( i do sport? = \) , no more outdoor shopping, no more sun.........
But.. is so cool to be a vampire.. i want to be a vampire... but... i love my day time life.. cant imagine i live without my daytime life....thatz kinda impossible..
but i still want to be a vampire... coz is very cool.. lol... but yea... as i say.. i cant.. lol... how come vampire cant walk under the sun... thatz sad.. even vampire always so pretty, always so smart, and such an awesome character... but there is just something weak for them.. haiii.... so itz true.. nathing is powerful.. anyone/ any anime/ any creature will still have their weakness.... sounds fair..
tvampire scared of the sun.... mayb thatz not bcoz they are weak.. mayb therez a love story invloved.. hmmm~ let see..
mayb boz..... .
.. long long long time ago.. bak into few hundred million years ago... when all those greek gods still exists, and all those creatures are still alive..when the vampire still can live under the sun.. therez a love story between a vampire and a daughter of Apollo.
Vincent the vampire is 1 of the member in Vampire family, son of Volvo ( ^_<) the strongest vampire back in that time.. fall in love with a lovely young lady named Jasmine which is Apollo's beloved daughter. They both deeply inloved, but they know they cant get married, because of family background. They tried to run away from their family and seek for happiness, but... no one allow them to do that. Therez once and is the last time when Vincent and and Jasmine trying to escape from their family, But this time.. Apollo found their plans and locked Jasmine inside the castle, and went to talk with Volvo and warn him if he not doing anything to stop Vincent, he will banned the Vampires from the sun. Volvo disagreed with Apollo and they end up with a fight....Apollo ofcoz did win the fight... thatz why Vampire generations are banned to live under the sun..
hmmmmmmm ... sound so dramatic... very typical love story.. .sounds like romeo and juliet.. but.. this is god fighting with earth creatures.. ofcoz.. strongest is the god.. the saddest part of the story is not vincent and jasmine cant be together.. the saddest part is.. Vampires are banned to live under the sun... haiii ... 12/21/2008 Love and Support?recently.. i got my Green P... but.. i still cant drive.. very funny isnt?
i reackon is very very funny... is just a funniest joke... even Daniel.. who got a L is driving way better than me...
even Judy who still on her Red P still driving way better than me...
im such a loser.. always not brave enuoght to drive... always not brave enought to turn right..... even Simone will laugh... such a loser.. but saddest part is... not all my frd forgot that Jenny does have a driver license.... the saddest part is... my bf.. laught at me.. bcoz i cant turn right... my bf think i cant drive... my bf doesnt believe i can drive safely..........
how sad is that... well.. to be honest.. not very sad... is normal... this is wat should be deserve.. i think..
i passed all my driving test in 1 go.... L, Red P, Green P..... but.... he still couldnt believe.. that i can drive.....well i guess he does believe.. but.. he just neva encourage me.. like others... or... neva support me...... im a gay person.. i need ppl to support me to do things... i cant just do it.. without support... most likely.. i need his support.. but.. he will just think.. im comparing him...
im not comparing him with frds... who trying to encourage me to drive.. im just tellin him.. even others BELIEVE i can... so i thought he could just BELIEVE i can as well.. but he just dont understand.. he thought.. I dont need encourage.. becoz i got my license alrdy... i dont need a hand.....
is just sad for me.. but normal for others...
love and support... i want both please..
P.S. Sorry Phil.. i shouldnt yell at u... bcoz u just dont understand me.. 12/14/2008 无形的负担感无可置疑的是。。。。虽然我看起来轻松，无忧无虑的， 但是在身后却有无形的负担感。。 不知负担从何而来， 但却把我压得透不过气。。。
很多话想说，却又说不出口。。。怕一说口，命运从此改变，众叛亲离地离开我身边。。。 但是事情真的会这样吗？ 我不敢冒险。。。。。
有人说我中文不好，英文还不好。。。。 压力从此而起。。。 人做到像我这样的。。。 真的是死有余辜。。。。。。
我从小就不喜欢英文，因为我被迫地来到这个地方，英文就是唯一语言，我因被迫所以讨厌。。。。不过无可置疑的是。。。我渐渐熟悉了这块我曾经讨厌的土地而渐渐地喜欢上它了。。。
可是以我现在的英文程度，只是勉强过关而已。。。。。压力从此而起。。。。。
真希望现在时间重来。。。。。 12/6/2008 love me till the end?Hey you, say love me till the end,
you are the one only i call my man.....
how many man can really stay till the end with their very firsti tme lover. they always have excuses to go out and find the other one... BUT life shoudnt work in this way!!!!
even he still with u now.. but in the mean time.. he has cheat on u alrdy.. that doesnt make any difference.. the only difference is.. he still choose u.. and think u are the r ight one for him..... BUT life shoudnt work in this way!!!
how ever.. no matter how the life work.. is not really meant to be change.. coz.. day by days... time goes by easy.. human alrdy like to stay the way they were..
therefore.. the stupidest question is... will u love me till the end? and is more stupid. if u just beleive he answer.. if he says yes
Things must need to change..why I always have to bother the relationship is romantic or not.. is fun or not.. is serious or not.. is in one piece or not....
time goes by, things stays the same way as they were and are... nathing is gona change.... love isnt chaning, lips isnt changing... person isnt changing... heart is changing... only thing that might change day by day, that is the age/apperance, mayb one day look into the mirror, the one that used be young and sexy... has changed to old and winkles... by that time.. love havent change? if so... then that is the real romance, so.. i start relized.. why i have to care the curent romance for? wait till the day i turned to a old grumpy lady and he still will hold my hand look bak to the roads that we have been walk throught andwait till us apart coz of the death... then thatz the real romance.
.hmmm up to this point of the blog... i alrdy have no idea. why im writing now...
overall.. im just tryin to convince myself.. current romance isnt important, what is up coming , wat is supoose to be change is the importantance of romance.. stable relationship is just a way to prove the romance is increasing.....
life is short.. argue is romantic or not.. is just boring.. but... if no romance.. is also boring... hmmm therefore.. life is short and is also boring.... BINGO 11/13/2008 Sori..But..I can't.....He bought me a watermelon the other day, because I mention that I want to eat watermelon... he just went to buy me a watermelon..he even ring his friend, and ask what is watermelon's english is. and bring it to the shop and gave me a suprise.....
He come to shop whenever I work, even is very late, he will still come over and say Hi.
He say he like me. I dono what to say, but all I can do is reject him, and getting away from him.
He ask me why, he cant met me before the other guy. I dono wat to say, but all i can do is reject him, and run away from him
He could be the one i like, If im not alrdy belong to someone.
I think i kno what to do. I do Love the one that i chose. So no matter how touch that i feel, i wont think anything.
I hope I choose the rite road, and He is my Mr.Right. 9/14/2008 nathing important..My name is Jenny Ruan... is it important to you?
No matter is important or not, is nathing to do with you... If im not important to you, dont be bother to feel bad..
My english is crap.. is it important to you?
No matter is importatn or not, is nathing to do with you... is just effecting my future only, not yours..dont be bother to feel sorry or funny....
If my exist is nathing important to you... please.. let me kno.. so i kno who u are and just let me face u in different way..
Im very important to myself.. coz i like myself.. even im such looser, even im such stupid, even im such crappy person...
Loving yourself.. isnt a bad thing, just do it...
The End. 9/2/2008 Im not alone..I have learnt alot of thing from the dieases im having atm, first overall, careful when shave!
and 2nd thing, i really feel so touching coz most of frd been ask me how am i going etc... i really feel happy... they does care about me...
so im not alone.......
thanks to Simone first, she been ask me how i feel everyday, and tried to encourage me to take shower with her.. lol
and then... thanks to Shannon and Chao... even Chao just come and grab text book.. but Sha tags alone to see me when she kno that i dont feel well...
most likely have to thanks Eileen... she been help me alot... she been listen to me, and tell me im not gona die coz of this diease, and help me to work.. even she got alot uni work to do...
last but not lease... thanks to Phil.. my baby.. he did nathing at all lol... he even ask me to rud his tummy coz he got tummy ache.. but.. haha.. i kno he been worried me alot... and thanks to him fix my bed for me.. so i can sleep very well during last few day that i have laid on bed for at lease 20 hr per day..
Well thanks to all my other frd as well who been ask me how i been...
thanks to let me kno.. Im not alone.. i stil have uz as my frd.. I love yous.. 8/25/2008 abc 君有些人真的很奇怪， 那个寂寞的时候被人问候几句，跟着别人是好人是坏人就分不清楚，
究竟是笨还是天真，几经分不清楚了，明明a君是一个三八， b君却认为她是好人，而c君因为平常的大性情被人称为坏人，
非常好笑， b君啊， 你的眼睛真的是瞎了吗？c君在你人生里真的那么不堪吗？ 如果真的是， 我跟你说， a君根本就是不喜欢你
她在你的背后说了不止一次的不喜欢你，而你还是像个瞎头苍蝇对着这个a君那里飞来飞去， 而把虽让口里说不喜欢你，而心里却为了你的事
奔波的c君置诸不理， 非常好笑的一个笑话，还是一个非常可悲的悲剧呢？
c君不可以被称之为伟大，因为他也有不好的习惯，当他跟其他朋友说的兴奋时，他就会不小心把秘密说出来， 这是不好的，谁也知道，
但a君所谓的仁慈，也只是因为她的不削跟你说话，而没把你的话记在心里所以才避过被说得危险， 表面来看，a君真的是一个好朋友
但。。。。 身为他们的朋友谁也知道， 虽然c君有个坏嘴巴，但他的心是有仁义道德的，他有的是义气，
可是因为a君的平静外表被人称之为好人，可是谁也知道有事发生了，最好还是不要找他，因为他不会为你作出任何牺牲的。
好人没有好报的， 没错。 我十分同音。 可怜的c君， 你就不要再做好人了， 做一个有义气的人干嘛？
那些类是b君的人只会利用你而已，当他们得到他们所希望拥有的，只会一脚踢开你而已， 没有人会记得你这个可怜虫。
从今天开始你真的不要再讲义气了， 义气不可以当饭吃， 只会把你弄痛而已， 你不要再让我伤心拉。。 |
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